today

was the worst day ever.

- i missed my lab that i was looking forward to going to
- i ran out of mayonaise
- i went to some shitty club expecting to be amazing music, turns out i wasted money i don't have on over priced drinks
- i came home and got told i have to pay £35 for a diffuser on a kitchen light that costs like £6.45

fml. godspeed xo

untitled.

Today, I don't know what's going on. I got woken up at 5:30am by a fire alarm and I wasn't allowed back into my room until around 6:30 and if I remember correctly iI was having quite an awswome dream too.

Also it turns out, I didn't get the job I thought I had which fucking sucks, but I guess I won't let it get me down. Tonight is also carnage night, but I don't think I can be bothered to go the same clubs I go to every night don't really seem that good anymore. Speaking of that though I went to Little Johnny Russell's last night which was awesome.

Right now I'm all about:

Adobe CS3 Flash
Frou Frou
Rice
Glasses of Water
Kettle Vegetable Chips
Logbooks.

Anyway I should really do something productive like go to sleep or do some work. Godspeed xo

A decent cup of tea.

It hadn't been a day when everything had turned out right –
She called me up and asked me to come over in the night,
To make her cups of tea and listen quietly as she starts
To list the latest list of bastards who have trampled on her heart.

I see her in the nightclubs, I see her in the bars,
At rooftop after-parties, or crammed into friends' cars,
And we talk about the weather, and how she drowns her pain in drink,
And I nod and never ever dare to tell her what I think.

She summers by my seas
But winters without me,
And she cries into her tea
That she's secretly lonely.
And oh me, what am I to do?
It's obvious to me,
But she never seems to see
That it's not about the days when everything has turned out right,
No it's more about the moments when she calls me in the night
To make her cups of tea and wash the weary worries from her head
And then to draw the pain out slowly as I put her into bed.

And I slip this information
Into all our conversations
But she never seems to listen
And she never seems to see.

I just had the best couple of days ever, I saw amber which was awesome. I really can't wait to see her again, which hopefully won't be too long. Also hence the title of my blog, I have officially just started drinking tea and I think I'm falling in love with it. So far my taste is milk and 3 sugars, maybe I'll man up some day and get rid of the sugars but right now its amazing ha. Above all, the thing I'm happiest about the most is that I actually managed to get a job and it's pretty good too! I get paid £7 an hour + commission. Only snag is I've got to take 2 weeks of uni for training from 9-5 but it's ok I guess because I'll be getting paid for it. Anyway, I'm going to bed now. Godspeed xo

I'll sleep when I'm dead

I don't know why but recently I've been finding it so so so hard to sleep. I guess there is a million thoughts going round in my head right now, but whatever I'll try and deal with it some how. Last night was good though, even though everyone went out and I didn't. I just stayed in my room watching films and drinking glasses of water, then when Ben came in and we watched the Outlaw Josey Wales which was insane.

Right now, I should be on my way to the 'guest lecture' even though I can't be bothered and on top of that I have to call my mum because she's moaning about something...again. Anyway, Godspeed xo

i'm just sitting here.

this is my desk right now.

This is awesome

I wish I had the creativity to get into stencil art. Maybe one day, relatively soon I'll grow a pair and do it.